*Fractured Fairy Tale*

It's been awhile again since we took this journey my friend.  Welcome back to the inner recesses of me.  The place where I come to talk of all, great and small.  As seen thru the eyes of this one who thinks she sees it all:)

Instead of letting the clouds of emotions form, that breed my more weighty thoughts; I've been releasing and gathering on my beloved Twitter playground.  A way to instantly share and emote in brief cadre, whatever is "breaking news" or profound additions to that which we feel passionate about.  

Because I love words and using them spritely, I can appreciate the way messages are delivered, as much as their content.  The more people you follow, the quicker the delivery of all kinds of things to get you stirred up.  I love the human spirit and the individuality of an extremely diverse community.  It really is using the ether in the best and worst ways, to bring us together.  

The most common thread for all these live wires these days is freedom.  Freedom for a woman to choose what she will do with her body.   Freedom from bullies both juvenile and adult, who prey on the weaker of the pack.  Whether it's relentless mean and sometimes physically abusing young people, or the more subtle and silent but deadly tactics of adults.  When the president of the United States calls out a faction of our governing body for trying to use "Social Darwinism" to get what they want; this should make you wake up.  In reality, how many know what it really means?

The most profound and basic rights we have taken so long for granted, are truly being dissected and even eliminated in an alarming proportions.  One of the most precious of these is Freedom Of Speech.  Even as I or any of us ever imagined we could witness this in our lifetime; it is happening and it is insidious and it makes me very nervous.  Granted, it's being done in the most sophisticated way and in the name of our country's security; but does that make it right?

In the last week there has been an enormous amount of information regarding new entities in our existence.  Huge complexes are being built and implemented in many countries simultaneously.  Some with formal announcements and some without.  For the purpose of these new minions of data, is to collect all of our data.  High functioning inner sanctums of surveillance are being integrated into our lives for monitoring our behaviours.  But why now?  And why aren't more people questioning this now?

You could say this came about in response to one present day famous pirate.  A voice with a vision capable of combining like visionaries to join his merry band.  Utilizing a broad band width of imagination and intelligence to combat the dark forces who would steal the truth from us all.  A beacon of light to enable all the little people to fight on fair ground with the most menacing armies of darkness.  And yet, they call Julius Assange a traitor.  

So now our governments would look on those of us who see the visionary as a hero, as fellow criminals.  Even though no case has been tried to prove guilt or innocence; it feels as though we all are being shifted to guilty till proven innocent.  If you openly support and participate in the "Occupy Movements"; you are also under scrutiny.  Some of the more innocent have found this out the hard way and felt the sting of being slapped for being bad children.  Right here in the land of "The Free And The Brave"; it is no longer a given right to speak out or speak up.  They just let us think we can now and then film us for future reference or future incrimination.

We were watched in the days of the Viet Nam protests too; but it was still much eaiser to "fall between the cracks", as the cracks were much wider then.  Those that wised up about using too much technology even in it's infant stages, soon learned the wisdom of bypassing wires for face to face encounters.  We had hidden villages within cities that were foreign to our enemies, where safe harbor and sanctuary were available on a minute's notice.  We had community and commonality on our side.  Today it's much more difficult to vanish indefinitely and the enemy is no longer intimidated to infilitrate.  In fact, all those revolutionaries all over the globe are learning lately to be suspicious among their closest allies.  The intimidation tactics to recruit spies is prevalant; but so is the desire of some to just be part of the glory of doing "their duty" for their country.

Odd bit of play going on here, wouldn't you say?  No wonder there are so many trying to speak out and make changes.  We are all at battle with a dominion of control like never before.  Where all our world leaders are so in sync with their roles that have left us in the dark to their ultimate power.  In just reading about the recent decision on appointment to lead the World Bank, I found a whole strategy of play that most are blissfully unaware of.  Appointments that have more to do with direct political implications than background or experience.  Alliances that feed off one another and are so conjoined as to be like one entity of governing body.  A body that want's no part of the common man's opinion.  Who in fact fears an uprising of little voices that can become loud and angry mobs.  

So that is why we must all be watched now.  The usual distractions are not enough any longer to keep people from reaching out to each other.  Not everyone wants Social Networking just to look at endless tidbits of people's lives.  We have found another way to create our hidden villages within villages.  We find each other easily and "mind sparks" fly for it.   We have those who are courageously committed to getting the real stories out that would affect all our futures.  Facts and figures that speak the truth boldly instead of innuendo.  Putting blame where it cannot hide and history in perspectives of clarity.   Now do you see the threat?

Though we've suffered mass mind washing in this country and shared it with our so called allies; the people are waking up to the dupe of the "War On Terrorism".   Wars that cost those that can afford it least and make wealthy those who deserve it least.  We've become a global being of War instead of human beings.  The human beings aren't happy.  They are standing up and crying out loudly enough to be heard; but how many will succumb to the smack down?  I wish for all those brave ones to not become victims.  To fight the good fights with all you have, while steadily protecting yourself at all times.

These are the latest surveillance proposals who will track you.

Here's a great piece courtesy of "The Bureau Of Investigative Journalism" on our huge complex here in the states.

http://www.thebureauinvestigates.com/2012/04/02/americas-new-data-centre-makes-uk-surveillance-plans-seem-petty/

Here's a story from "The Independent" on how David Cameron is defending surveillance in the U.K.

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/uk/politics/david-cameron-defends-government-surveillance-plans-7618435.html

Lastly, here's another great article from "The Atlantic" on how the West is supplying the Arab Nation with the latest in surveillance techniques...and others.

http://www.theatlantic.com/international/archive/2012/03/surveillance-inc-how-western-tech-firms-are-helping-arab-dictators/254008/

In ending our journey fellow internaut, I hope you will be enlightened in your chosen path.  Do not go blindly into the Net.  As innocent as you may think you and what you say are; there are those who undoubtedly think differently....

It's no longer the Julian Assange or Bradley Manning who are the only suspect here and high time we stopped buying that criminal mind wash bilge and ask why to speak the truth is to be deemed a criminal?  When in reality they challenged criminal governments everywhere.

Carry On all Fighters of the Good Fight, and worthy and wise warriors may you all be!  Support each other and give shelter and guidance when needed.  It is your spirit to help one another and even those who can't fight for themselves, that makes you a rare beauty and beacon of light in these times.  

Just be safe to fight another day.  

Whew! What a day in the world.......

Trying to write these days is a muddy feeling.  Trying to keep my word that I'll only write when I feel moved so passionately as to do so....means I could write every day these days ....and never get it all out.  

Try writing about what is an enormous threat to our society....when it's Oscar's night....when it's Wikileak's night....when OWS camps are flaring livestreams like firecrackers....because they want their night.  When the victims of war are crying because it should be their night and will not let the world forget their pain.

We are all yelling out our causes and passions these days, like children all trying to speak at once.  Bartering has begun and spun a new currency among the organizers.  Signatures and petitions and above all showing up....is supposed to be the answer for everything...except it's obviously not.

And while the infighting for attention, with loud tantrums among all the little rebels and wound up organizers is going on....

Who is really talking about coming together, which is the power they all are craving?...There's still no ascending to a higher collective mind and trusting in more than making sure we still have Obama next November.  Sure it's monumental to have Obama in our highest office; but it's also time to really see the global citizens we all are meant to be.  Otherwise, what good is our one little country, if the world around us is blowing itself to bits....and setting it's sights on us as the problem.

People all over the world were moved by the shock and tragedy of 911...our leader of the land then said we must make those feelings about war.  Just look what it's done to us....I could never allow that again.  To have those in power who push agendas dominated by whatever large "interest group"...will never further us as a society or human beings.  Religion has become the new push to de-humanize us; but it's really the wealth behind the religion that we must continue to confront.  OWS is right....it is about the 1% puppetmasters and always has been.  We are not who they would try and make us be.  But how do we make everyone remember, without waiting for another catastrophe?  The fire is already lit again for those who are threatening retaliation in our homeland, for dis-honoring theirs.  Whatever God we believe in, would he really deem this righteous behaviour?  We only all have but one creator.  A history of religions all over the globe all echo a common theme and always have.  I live my religion every time I study the hearts I'm viewing on my job.  You simply cannot see what I see and have witnessed for almost 20 years now, without respecting the obvious design.  Every cell in our body is designed to work together.  Not unlike everything we witness in nature and now also take for granted.  We were designed to work together too...why wouldn't we be?

One word...Greed.  The most evil outcome of a most magnificent design.  If a certain group of cells in our body tried to get greedy, the body would try and find a way to self correct.  We are the body and now we are trying our best to run around and fight for what we innately know is true.  What is in our genetic codes that we cannot deny.  We want the body to survive; but how do we do surgery?

Every good scientist or doctor, knows you start with gathering information.  Looking for disease where it grows and thereby making it a more real target.  Initiating the correct treatment and outcome, which automatically calls the body to do it's part in the healing.  If you are afraid or negligent in exposing the cancerous matter that only wants to take over...the body is left weakened and may succumb to the worst.  

Greed is the cancer in our society and body of man these days.  The only way to survive is to confront it as a whole body.  We have to figure this out somehow.  Because right now, all the alarms on the life support machine are going off loudly.  

One hundred forty four Syrians died today.  Nine thousand people have died there since the government launched it's crackdown in March.

A scared and concerned doctor relates what it's like listening to Israeli drones overhead again in the West Bank.

A fed up young high school student took a gun to school and fired on young students and killed one and wounded four.  Possibly in response to anouther round of bullying.

Brave OWS protestors await eviction confrontations in multiple cities in the U.S. and the United Kingdom and hope they will not somehow become part of the body count.

About twenty five thousand people will die of hunger today around the world.

Poor sweet dolphins are beaching themselves in numbers like never before.

Our body is dying not because we've lost our souls; but because there is someone who thinks they should own them all....somewhere....everywhere...Greed is the reason for want of control...all over our world.

So what if....the whole world stood up as one body really.  While we are protesting and organizing...when will we stand up for the whole?  What if we start organizing a specific time everyday to be the example?  What if it all started with just standing together from all groups and acknowledging sincerely that we are all together?  Instead of dwelling on all our differences and leaving that legacy for children to imitate and think it's alright to kill each other....why not just recognize we really are but made from one....who only meant for us all to be one with one another?

What if the whole world stood up for the world to heal?

Please watch this video and spread it around...unfortunately embedding has been disabled...but don't miss this.....it's just the truth and always has been....as pointed out by one who tried to enlighten us...even as he became a victime too.  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jSoj1xzH99s

It's been preying on my mind lately that women's basic rights are truly in jeopardy.  Though it's obviously a personal issue with women more than men; men like the kind I cherish are just as concerned.  Because it does concern all of us...and this is a bold attempt to challenge so much that has been hard fought.  So why in the world...would the good ol' U.S.A. ....be the last to join the global community and ratify CEDWA?  

To bring all those up to speed who don't immediately reference the two organizations at issue today....here's a link to each that in essence represents each cause.  To not be aware that this kind of organizing is going on with both sides, could once again be the needed catalyst for a monumental shift to the Right, and back in time about 150 years or so.  So read up and please do your own research for whatever depth you choose to matter....just be aware that not to choose matters NOW...which brings me to another resource link for "The National Organization For Women".  The last of which is a vital much needed place to visit for updates on all issues of women's rights and human rights.

First I give you the latest call from the leaders at "The Concerned Women For America".  

http://www.cwfa.org/content.asp?id=20864

Second is the page for the "CEADW" Women's Rights Treaty Fact Sheet....where you can also join and donate.

http://www.now.org/ratifywomen/factsheet.html

In pondering what I really wanted to say about this important topic, I took a look at another woman who would certainly want us all to speak up.  Before Susan B. Anthony became a beacon for women's rights, Lucy Stone was starting the conversation.  She was the first woman in Massachusetts to earn a college degree.  She was also the first person to ever be cremated in Massachusetts.  In between these two monumental events, lies a story rich with bravery and passion, and the stubborn will to succeed above all.  Even asking her only child to carry on after her, which she did up to the age of 92, inheriting the "Woman's Journal" in Boston, which ran from 1870 to 1931.  The whole purpose being to bring light to causes pertaining to human rights and not just women's rights.  Equality for all was key in Lucy Stone's mind, and also called her to speak up for abolishing slavery.  For a woman in the 1800's she traveled extensively to speak and recruit the numbers needed to bring about the changes she believed would truly make everyone's lives better for it.  Suffering times of attending to family members in their final hours at the same time she suffered personal ills.  Her convictions led her to those of like mind, both male and female.  In the end, she lived to see many of her dreams for a better society won out.  Even she knew though, that the battles were not over.  The very reason she instilled her only child and daughter to carry on.  But what about the rest of us?  Shouldn't we too carry on for all those valiant efforts over a century ago...that are again on the agenda?  Not if the C.W.A. can help it...and believe me...they are more than a little organized, networking, and politically re-enforced more than ever.  This is the closest thing to a civil war this country has seen since Lucy Stone was being stoned by her adversaries.  So who are our present day adversaries who wish to take away our rights?  Here's more on that story and hopefully an exposing moment for the ones we really need to fear.

Beverly LaHaye started the C.W.A in 1979 in protest to the "Equal Rights Ammendment".  She is totally against feminism and purports the christian principles she and her followers feel to be not only fundamental but the only way to think and live.  

"Feminism is more than an illness; it is a philosophy of death."  Beverly LaHay

The C.W.A. once commented on a gay tourist couple visiting the United States...as a threat to border security and domestic terrorists.  Even as she has never denied charges that her son Lee is openly gay...and also happens to manage the CWA's money.

"Politicians who do not use the Bible to guide their public and private lives, do not deserve to be in office."  Beverly LaHaye.

This is why the CWA's site has all kinds of current info on politicians they support, who in turn are supporting their causes.  Something I'm sure makes those highligted elected officials more than a little uncomfortable...or does it?  Have these values and principles really so invaded our present culture to the point they are considered acceptable...even common?  You damn well better believe it!  And here's a few examples:

The CWA has also been the driving force behind legislators allowing our very history books to be changed to favor their beliefs and mission.  What is their mission?  Here's an exerpt from another CWA page on this subject:

"Founded to oppose feminism, Concerned Women for America (CWA) claims to be “the nation’s largest public policy women’s organization.” Its mission is to “bring Biblical principles into all levels of public policy.”

CWA was formed in 1979 by Tim LaHaye and his wife, Beverly. At the time, the Equal Rights Amendment (ERA) was gaining steam, and conservative activists sought a vehicle to oppose it that would – at least on the surface – be run by women. (Today, three out of five of the organization’s highest-paid positions are held by men.)"

You just can't make this stuff up....even exposing their plan of having an organization...that only on the surface appears to be run by women!  How bold can you get?  Pretty damned bold when you have the millions this couple has bilked from loyal followers in book and seminar sales.  Enough to give generous contributions to supporters like Jerry Falwell and by starting their own PAC.  These are the people openly opposing feminism and equal rights....and oh by the way....they truly see and preach those opposed to their views as the damned and evil devils who must be considered enemies.  Who is buying their books and taking stock in their philosophies?  Tim LaHaye has authored over 40 books with close to 10 million copies estimated in circulation.  Beverly and he co-authored her first offering, "The Act Of Marriage", which has sold over 2.5 million copies since 1976.  Not to mention at least 1,000 seminars of their psychologically-oriented "Family Life Seminars, Inc.  Somebody is listening...including your neighbors, co-workers, and maybe even your boss.  They teach how to profile people based on what they believe to be a handful of types.  They also of course provide personal profiling to help you better understand yourself and others....from their perspective.  The only truly Christian perspective always...of course.

So there you have the leaders of what is more than a small concern on our horizon.  The far Right wing Christian conservatives who wish to take us not only backwards in history; but on a course that likens civil war.  They are and have been preaching the "Us Against Them" philosophy with other evangelical like minds, for over 30 years.  Not like my hero Lucy Stone...but clearly for profiteering and controlling large segments of population to empower their goals, and the goals of big businesses who have given them support and steered their goals, like the Koch brothers and Karl Rove.  The ones who would use their ranks to forward the New World Order philosophies of ultimate control of us all.

So this is a large reason why the CEDWA has yet to be ratified by the U.S.  Because to know it's fundamental principles and causes, you first have to believe in equality for all....women, gays, children....and all those who deserve to be free just because they are fellow humans.  Please remember this the next time you hear any talk of legislation designed to challenge all our freedoms.  It's not just a woman thing....but even the CWA knows that women are the real activists for these causes always.  Even when it's their men who clearly want this control...enough to sacrifice all we've learned and earned in the last century.  Don't be dumbed down.  Don't look the other way.  And don't forget that in reality they are the same people who will faithfully show up on election day next November....and already are.

Here's the link to NOW:

http://www.now.org/

And lastly, here's all to know about the founders of CAW and all their consorts from the "Biblical Discernment Ministries", updated 2005...

http://rapidnet.com/~jbeard/bdm/exposes/lahaye/general.htm

I hereby re-affirm, that I have been a passionate supporter of the Occupy Movement all along.  Old Revolutionaries don't fade away.   We just sort of go underground.... in a mainstream kind of way.  

Watching this new baby movement, caused more than a few of us to surface again.  We recognized the passion for a cause, and also the common mistakes made.  We felt a compulsion to give the benefit of our hard fought experiences, even as we knew they would be labeled ancient.  It was hard to take for a generation of our proportions.  Till we actually had to say to ourselves, that it had been already two generations past.  We still couldn't keep our mouths shut, or keep from showing up though.   I saw the likes of those from "Crosby, Stills, & Nash" to Abbie Hoffman, just chomping at the bit to join the current day Proletariats.  It was a gas, it was energizing.   It was finding our way back to something we were really good at.

So now we are many months past the infant stages and cutting teeth so to speak, on newfound power. The toddling gathering, endeared itself to many.  The media was kind, the season was Summer, and hanging out singing protests in the park, was sweetly nostaligic.   Not to say that giant steps were not being made at the same time.  New laws, new governing ways, that actually were the primitive Democracy that is the United States.  

Appropriately, it was birthed and nurtured in the very city of it's natural enemy.  Where the diversity of the locals, was like a loving Nanny to it's charge.  A charge born of anger, that did not make for an easy adoption.  But the baby movement grew on us all and for some became beloved enough to protect. Stretching and pushing the boundaries a little at a time or all at once, just like a teenager.  They were led to believe they could just keep pushing.  Till like a strict parent, the opposing views decided it was time to teach the teen, just  who was in charge.  As if they'd gotten caught after curfew, and admonished sternly not to repeat their crime.  Like any young adult, the facts of life came crashing down on them....and now the true signs of maturity are emerging.  

I spent the better part of today witnessing the latest event in Occupy history.  A valiant effort by yet another loyal faction of this army defending it's territory.  A territory that is the land of our leaders and those who make our laws.  Occupy D.C. was everything it could and should be today, and like a proud parent, a moment of praise for a job well done, is in order.  For children thrive on routine and laws; but they grow to their brightest potential when praised.  Something a too strict parent will often forget.  If you beat down their spirit too much; they may turn on you and resent you forever.  Better to listen, respect the individual and remember when we were once young and full of passion.  We also thought we had the answers to change the world.  In many ways we really did...including setting a precedent for taking to the streets in protest.

A beautiful young videographer for Occupy D.C. named "Nate", held us all spellbound today, with his live lens, for over thirteen hours.  A phenomena that I still marvel at, much more than my younger counterparts.  We never had the advantage of seeing anything on television that wasn't censored in some way when were organizing long ago.  We had communication networks all the same; but nothing as instantly in your face.  The advantage of truly having the "Whole World Watching", is also the most dangerous threat to the ones who wish they'd just disappear.  The people that can be united in mere minutes these days, scares the pants off those that wish to control us all.  There is no real controlling the internet, unless they turn it off.  

Beware though, of those who hold us in their grip while we fly across the ether.  They are already in collusion with our foes after all.  It's no small coincidence, that both Yahoo and Google executives, have been listed in recent years on the roster at Bohemian Grove.  No conspiracy theory here...just facts.  Here's a link to one of the stories pertaining to the Bohemian Grove agenda this last Summer.   Not many will come up when you search, and they can be easily labeled as "conspiracy"; but don't buy that hype any longer please.

http://famous-conspiracy-theories-websites.blogspot.com/2011/09/bohemian-grove-2011-ends-illuminati.html

What? Do you think the enemy doesn't have War Camps?  Tell me then, why the Bohemian Grove is blacked out on Google Earth?  Politics makes strange bed fellows, and our media and communication elite, are the worst prostitutes always.  I think even the newly naive protesters have begun to figure this out.  Though the internet is their friend, it's not always "friends with benefits".  Better to bypass the internet highway at times and instead utilize the underground highway of person to person transmission.  In other words, don't leave a trail for your enemy.  Enlist your supporters in the communities you inhabit and support them; as was suggested at the General Assembly in McPherson Square today.  

The movement lives and breathes with the compassionate support of it's admirers.  Admirers who show allegiance because they can respect and support your causes.  Especially when your causes are their cares.  The newfound maturity of the Occupy Movement, realized in no uncertain terms today, that they hadn't done enough to show care for the community they were inhabiting.  If they had reached out more, maybe more would have joined them, in numbers that make the best statement.  Like our society today, we showed up on the internet; but not face to face.

So now for the next big date in Occupy history, Occupy Super Bowl.  To many, especially the die hard sports fans, the audacity is more than they can stand.  To belittle what has to be the biggest national "Man" day in our country, is like a personal insult.  The majority of articles I could find on the subject, were mostly sports writers condemning it as blasphemy.  I couldn't let this moment in my home town's history, lose it's true meaning to ignorant explanations.  

The movement in Indiana is as grass roots as it gets.  I won't deny there's been a definite presence by the unions in their guidance; but when you understand the local dynamics, it makes perfect sense.  This area was home to many of the original unions in the manufacturing sector.  When Union wasn't a dirty word; but rather the reason to be proud that you could secure your future as a worker.  Allowing many to realize the "American Dream" in the best way.  It bridged the gap somewhat, between the "haves" and the "have nots", more than any other contribution in our society.   It allowed the Middle Class to grow and thrive as much as the GI Benefits had done for the World War II generation who chose to make their leap with education that was subsidized.  Not everyone is meant or destined for the academic route.  So what do you do with a whole other segment of society that is just as deserving?  

Every society is multi-level this way.  It's just that the most successful ones accept to address this, instead of waiting for anger and resentment to breed violence and revolt by the masses.  Even the elite used to agree to this principle of prosperity for all.  Begrudgingly maybe by some, but still recognizing the security it afforded them as well.  That's why Unions had government support for so long.  The workers were happier and more productive for their job security, and the employers benefited and still built fortunes because of it.  

When did this all go wrong?  When Greed became more important than people.  Wether it was greed by those who infiltrated unions for the power and illegal gains of crooked organizers, or the greed of employers who would no longer be threatened.  Enlisting lawmakers to allow them to take their businesses out of the country and out of the grips of unions that had become greedy.  No longer just protecting the worker's rights; but jeopardizing them instead.  

And then there were no jobs.  Only the military was hiring.  While the rich got richer for cheap labor and our children were robbed of any realistic future.  The institutions of "Higher Learning" cashed in our dilemma in the bargain.  Assuring students and their parents everywhere, that all it would take to conquer this, was their costly degrees to nowhere.  The colleges are just as culpable in the state of things today as any elitist target known as the "1 percent".  The very reason you see so many young people in this movement.  Not even multiple degrees will buy you a job these days, especially when you have the lawmakers determined to make us suffer, and blame the present political leader for it all.  

So how do you stand up to such formidable odds?  What did they expect they were breeding, but contempt?  No different from all the evil dictators around the world they point their fingers at and depose with their agendas of domination.  Designed to give them more accumulated power and wealth, even as the rest of us are left grieving for the sons and daughters who were sacrificed.  When did we ever envision that we would be at war continuously?  We didn't, but the ones who prosper from war knew it, promoted it, and now scare us with new enemies that in reality they have made, not us.

Here's a speech by John F. Kennedy that is a chilling prophecy of what greed could do.  Coming from one who was born among the elite, and knew that greed could not be counted on to do the right thing.  That to question and protest was not only our right but the right thing to do.

Tomorrow will be the next moment in history for the Occupy Movement, Occupy Super Bowl.  As I reminded someone today; it's not about the football game, but a bigger game to be lost.  To know Hoosiers, is to know that we are most proud of our friendliness and fairness.  Watching brave Hoosiers this past Summer running to help victims of the State Fair tragedy, instead of running away, made me proud beyond words.  That's what we do.  We don't run from battle; but we don't like starting them either.  

You can find a heated political debate in Indiana; but we also are known for supporting both sides in the name of fairness.  For many years Hoosiers were known to elect governors and senators of one persuasion, while also putting mayors in office with the alternate perspective, to lead our largest metropolis and the capital of our state.  Maybe it has to do with some of our Quaker heritage, or maybe it comes from being people who are also known to be good at growing things.  

The people who will stand up tomorrow will have a purpose they champion, because they feel personally obligated to stand up for all.  They are ashamed of the local GOP lawmakers who would try and forfeit them and all workers, by using Indiana as a precedent for jeopardizing workers rights all over our country.  Which is exactly what no politician is willing to talk about, especially those running for president.

Though there will be those who are angry and have every right to be, it really is not meant to be a violent protest.  Anymore than all the brave people I witnessed today in McPherson Square.  They are exercising their right, they are fed up, and they are brave enough to wish for change.  Why would we find fault with them, just because they were given a divine opportunity to advertise their case?  The Super Bowl will go on all the same.  Expensive ads will still be played, to the tune of an average 3.5 million each.  Is it any wonder some would find this a decadent display in such hard times for so many?  

So don't hate my beloved fellow Hoosiers on this Super Bowl Sunday for wanting a small piece of the spotlight for what they believe in.  They believe they are fighting an even bigger game and in the end for all of us.  

And don't hate me for not talking more about my present home town's glorious Patriots.  Of course I will root for the home team....but it will be in two entirely different arenas.  Because the Super Bowl game will have an ending tomorrow evening...but hopefully the more important game will make us all winners.

It's been over a month since I did this.  It's been a hard cold month emotionally; but also filled with love.  .

The man who married my mother 41 years ago, lost a valiant battle with a disease still known to too many.  The one that can devastate us and sometimes steal our last breath.  Lung cancer and all cancers, are still an unpredictable menace regardless of all our advancements.  I watched this monster inside him, not only steal his life away; but also my poor, sweet Mom's  It's diffucult to soothe and console from a 1,000 miles away.  I had a vacation planned for this Summer; but that of course was deleted in the aftermath of a crazy car accident that left me out of service for 3 months.  He was trying to hold on and I was too, as we looked forward to my trip home at Thanksgiving.  But in the middle of a scary night, where my 83 year old mother was forced to take him to the hospital, fate changed everything and no one was ready for "goodbyes".  

So I spent a day in agony and torment 1.000 miles away.  Listening to tears and sobbing from my mother and daughter who stayed by his side.  I got the first flight I could and made a trip to home two weeks early.  They had just recieved the news that the deal on their house they had tried to sell, had just fallen through.  I think it was more than he could stand, thinking of my Mom left with a house and alone.  You see, he was 11 years younger than her.  He took care of everything for her.  She even had to learn how to take the medicines he would always lay out for her.  He also had walked the small dog that was theirs for the last nine years.  She still waits for him and won't let anyone take her harness off of her.  

It was a sad and pathetic scene to see my mother who had just lost her soulmate.  She still sleeps in his shirts.  She made me sleep in her bed the first night, as she just couldn't stand the loss.  I didn't sleep well myself; but I had to do it for her.  I had to do alot of things for her, and in a short time.  Including identifying the body...something that just had to be done..and I was the most logical choice.  I have seen death in many stages after 20 years in healthcare.  It's just not the same though when it's someone you know, even for the most seasoned veteran.  So I had my moment to say goodbye, and was grateful for a most peaceful and serene face.  It didn't matter if it was a makeup trick of the mortician; it was how I needed to see him that last time.  

Then my mother wants to show me where their stone will be.  This is a large cemetary in Indianapolis, my hometown.  Where they have multiple options for that tribute to your final resting place.  They had chosen it together and loved this little rock garden surrounded by trees.  Passing by an old friend and neighbor, where we laid rocks telling of our visit.  The rituals of life and death are many, and I visited them all this month.

On a happier note, I was elated to spend time with my only daughter, who is blooming in love all around her.  Re-connected with a young love, who found her again 10 years later, and at just the right time.  He still had a picture of her in his wallet all those years.  While she explored men who never really appreciated her, and thought there was no relief in sight.  So that's how life is; it has it's way with you when it feels like it.  We are then forced to do things like confront our fears and conquer the moment.  If you don't rise to the challenge, a life changing consequence is also sometimes our fate.  

Is it really that simple?  Does someone, something, really pull the strings?  I believe that Quantum Physics is real and that the Law Of Attraction rule also applies; but is there another plan that cancels out all our hopes and dreams, no matter how dilligent we seek them?  My mother asked me many times in the last few weeks; where do you think he is?  My mother was never really a dilligent religious soul.  She took us to church and we attended parochial school for about half our elementary education.  She chose the school and church because they were literally right acroos the street from our house, and she felt good with the people there.  But life makes you jaded with it's experiences sometimes and with more questions than answers as time goes by.  Till the end is closer than ever and we all want to believe in our salvation.  

My personal beliefs are multi-cultural and complex, and change with my own experiences.  How do I soothe this poor grieving woman with esoteric and existentialism now?  I tell her I believe he is surrounded by love.  Because I believe we do have something waiting to reflect on our lives and with guidance and resolution of lessons learned.  Maybe more like school than heaven; but without all the pain we took in our past incarnation.  I also believe that if our energy is still so drawn to this plane and the people left behind, we do stick around for a little while.  My mother had several moments of feeling that presence in the first week.  Starting with a sensation that someone was following her out of the hospital the day she left her husband there.  There was a key that needed to be found and she had searched thru his pants to no avail.  She finally spoke out to him and asked him to help her.  When she checked the pocket again, the key was there.  The next week she recieved an offer for her house that looks to finally be reliable.  Divine intervention?  Who can really say?

So this week I boarded a flight to home again to celebrate Thanksgiving.  I made a beautiful full course meal with all the trimmings.  We laughed and looked at old pictures and teased the young couple about the upcoming nuptials and the eventually spoiled oppspring.  My daughter now has a new affinity for all things "Baby", as we did the traditional shopping trip.  She's almost 29 and hearing the proverbial "Biological Clock" most loudly it would seem.  She never before would coo over tiny boots or the variety of baby carriers.  A new future looms in the mist on her horizon, and she seems to feel it and embrace it these days.  Life goes on.  One way or another.  When we least expect it.  Without regard always for our plans.  Revealing in it's own way, that there is a plan that we can't see.  We are forced to play the game in the meantime, naive and unaware of what's really to come.  Till we've done all we were meant to do in this story, and then are sent home to learn for at least a brief time, who we really are and how we all fit in.  

Here's an account in timeline form that I found a couple of years ago.  I don't say that it is anything but possible re-telling of other ancient stories of our beginnings and designs.  I do find some answers though that fit, as my perceptions have adjusted with knowledge not found in churches.  Especially not these days.  Do I think there was a scheme to control us with stories that were altered to suit those who wished control? Most definitely, there's just too many flaws and tears in the veil of wonder we call the Bible.  

I personally witness the amazing workings of the human body every day in my profession.  I take ultrasound pictures and measurements of the heart and compile a report for the Cardiologists to review.  I take approximately 70 digital clips for each patient I see.  When you see what we are made of and how intricately the design was concieved that everything should work together, it is humbling.  All this did not just happen.  Though I had a patient recently who desperately wants to believe that everything is made up of chance; because her recent diagnosis of cancer, had her questioning her own finality.  Personally, I can't deny there is a grand design and a creator beyond our meager imaginations.  It's that very thing that gives me the most hope actually.  For as I have told many a patient as I let them peak inside at their hearts.  If someone or something is that grand and in control; I'm alright with that.

Here's the story of the"Helping Hand" for your review.  Just a more than small encounter with someone who wanted to share....something.  In a time where so much seems surreal and out of control, it does bring questions of a design that we're not priveleged to.  Full of theory and speculation; but with just enough that is familiar and profound to make you wonder.

Here's the first line in this conversation:

"Every so often, as per the directives of the Law of our Creator, a brief window of opportunity opens, whereby a select handful of our Family are required to make communication with our subjects, and offer you the chance to ask us any questions you would like answered. "

http://home.comcast.net/~readingnews/Hidden_Hand.html